Question

As we wait and wait and wait for our daughter to come home, i often think about how it will be once she is here and i am not waiting for her to come home. I know i will be busy being a mom but i really wonder what it will feel like not to wait ?

HAPPY Halloween oh mean Happy Anniversary

Today is the day (6 years ago) I married the most wonderful man in the world. I love my husband for so many reasons and everyday i find something new to love him for. I love him for always laughing at my jokes, understanding that some time i am just going to be crazy, letting me be me and saying "that's why i love you" supporting everything i do, taking this long journey we are on to start our family. The list could go on for day. Ryan I love you with all my heart and soul and can not wait to spend every day making you laugh.

Well it has been a busy month. We had family visiting for two weeks. First R"s dad came to visit it was great fun. He was here a week and then R' s brother wife and kids came And my Mother in law they stayed a week as well. They were all in town for R's nieces wedding she was married in the Logan temple on Oct. 16. So we ha a fun filled day in Logan. While they wee here we also went to gardener village and antelope island. We also carved pumpkin with my niece and geat nephew and we had a geat time.

Smile thou your heart is breaking

We got a pic of Z and how great she looks. And an added surprise........ She is Smiling YEAH.

OK not in both photos. No news on paper work still in MOI. I am sure we will get some info in Oct when every one is there. Still being very positive about everything. We are still thinking she will come home for Christmas so Put it in the universe and the universe will get it back. Right? Right.

This process can take it toll on you physically and mentally and it and take you to places you never thought you would go. I am tiring to be really positive to make it easier on me mentally. So far it has been working. Everyday i just think and say something positive about the adoption and it makes the day a little easier. So today

I love you Z and i WILL see home soon.

Start the week off right..... Positive thinking

I guess i should post something since it has been a couple of weeks. There really is nothing to report. We are not going on the next trip to Haiti. This always makes me sad but i know that Z will be home soon enough. We have been in MOI since June1 2009 so just about 4 months so the way i see it and the time lines we have been giving it should be any day now. So we will wait patiently and hopefully she will be home soon.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU>>>>>>>>>>>>>

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO OUR TWO YEARS OLD GIRL WE LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU.

UGGGGGGGG

I am having a really hard time this week with the adoption. You wait every day to hear some good news and nothing. I understand that it is a hard process and hard to live in Haiti and to get anything done. I guess i just come from the mentality that if its your business to do adoption then you should get then done. In America if it your business to say process under ware at victories secret then you get up in the morning, put on your all black uniform, get in your car, drive on paved roads to the freeway, take the exit, go in to the mall, and begin your business day. In Haiti not the same you don't have the luxuries like a car or paved road. I understand all that is Haiti and how hard the living conditions are but sometime just sometimes i get every selfish. I want this to be done and i want it now. In the words of Veruca Salt "Daddy i want a golden goose now"