Haiti june 2008

not a happy girl

Well today we received a dvd and a cd with pictures of Z on it and also her birth mother and older brother. When we went to the Haiti in January there was a lady that keep saying something to us in Creole. We tried to get someone to translate but no one knew what she was saying. (i guess) So we got back our hotel room and R and I discussed that we thought that this lady was her birth mother. We asked the coordinator's to ask when they came back from the orphanage they just told us that she was her nanny we still thought that there was some thing there but we just left it alone and come to find out the group that went in June found out that it is Z birth mother and she works at the orphanage. I have mixed feeling about this

i am so happy that Z has her birth mom there to get her all the love and attention she needs and i know that this is the best case scenario and it is comforting to know that she is being cared for in the most nurturing way but i feel so sad for the birth mom because she is giving us the greatest gift and when we take her home this will be so heart breaking for both of us and i know that this is true for any birth mom but most of the time the birth mom has left them in the O and does not return. I don't know i am over analyzing this.